lost

I am lost at home
and need to run away
I have nothing to say
to anyone here today
I have lost my voice
and my way in my world

I have stumbled before
scrapped my knees and hands
but I fell and skinned my mind
and bleed tears

© 5 July 2010
Cynthia Ryder

Silence

Commanded to be without words
you growl and moan earthy sounds
stemming from somewhere deep inside
hidden in daily domesticity
until surrender to your wild side
brings them out in you
and you crawl and claw
your way to the jungle
your catlike litheness
accompanies the silent human form
and you shape-shift to your feline self
when complete you purr in my arms
having given in to the command
the pain, pleasure and silence

© 28 April 2010
Cynthia Ryder

Gift

What you have given to me
is a boundless love to be free
Through your desire and need to serve
If you had asked last if I had the nerve
to accept you just a year ago
I know I would have said no

Fluid time and motion
changed my mind
and changed my world

What was so small is now grown
taken on a life of your own
I am moving and I dance with you
Any chance with you I have said yes to
with music and words you move into me
as part of your efforts to please me

© 20 April 2010
Cynthia Ryder

Found lines

golden glowing snaking
through my body heated
rising doing nothing
but read your words again
shivering delighting
in a spasm rocking
virtual joy grips me


© 14 January 2010
Cynthia Ryder

Dream

The Northern Lights danced with images of angels
as quickly as they formed and undulated in the sky
they fell away to sunshine and absolute rainbows
while the spirits around us moved in fluid form
drawing us together in soft embraces of love
we flow into the vibrant colours of our hearts
kissing sweetly the life that breaths through us
we are held in kind arms that sway with hope
and keep us from falling too quickly to cool earth
where we come to meet a cradle of gentle ground

© 14 February 2010
Cynthia Ryder

Need

I curse myself for this now
I fear what I know in myself
and I loathe that fey voice
in my mind that screams
I need you
even when I need so little
This is so deep it sickens
it is as old as breath
and lingers on in time
revisiting the defiant self
again in this lifetime
it pains till there are tears
drains the voice through sobs
now I am as much yours
as you have become mine
I fear the depths of this
as much as the heights
but I need you
more than I fear need
I can no longer doubt
that it's you I need

© 8 February 2010
Cynthia Ryder

Gravity

I want to wake up holding you
in more than just my mind
to feel you in real space
in a place more then just my heart
I need to breathe with you
more than just in spirit form
I crave it all in real time
to answer my questions of why
I am drawn to you into you
as the moon body to mother earth
your touch is tattooed on my skin
you voice is signing in my ears
I am pulled to you so hard
my will to resist is crushed
I am fully consumed in passion
by my desire to embrace you
entirely for a moment
forever eternally
but internally I am struck
by the impossibility of wishing
that it were possible once
to be swallowed wholly
and be taken in by you
by the gravity
of the time
of my mind

© 31 January 2010
Cynthia Ryder